Discography

I’m not myself.
It seems that I’m losing myself.

Whispers of the past, hauntingly near.
Searching for a place where I can hide
In a labyrinth of time, searching for a place.

I’m not myself.
Seems that I am losing myself.
I’m not myself.
Losing control.

A free fall of emotions. I’m losing control — Cascading.
I find liberation in losing control — I’m dancing. Where do I belong to?
A free fall of emotions. I’m losing control — Persuading.
I find liberation in losing control — I’m dancing.

Through the city’s veins, I feel the pulse of the crowd. I’m not myself.
Chasing city lights, I feel the heat of the crowd. I’m not myself.
Chasing city lights, I feel the heat of the crowd — In there, I dissolve.
Through the city’s veins, I feel the pulse of the crowd.

Feeling that my heart is cold, on hold. I’m not myself.
Chase it.br />

Feel like I cannot go any further.

I feel like I’m not getting anywhere.


This place has lost its charm, and I have lost all my faith,
 

but now it’s way too late to compensate.


Will I escape my fate if I stay?


Disappoint my future if I stay?


Let down my fate?



Is it more than I can take?


Is it beyond my strength? Am I not mad enough?


Is it more than I can take?


If love is not enough — drop another pill and fake it.



I feel like I cannot go any further.


I’ve lost my faith again.


I find myself in disbelief and grief.
 

It’s way too quiet here!



Am I ready?


Dancing shadows on the wall.


Love is not enough. Not strong enough. Memories sprawl.


Am I ready?


Dancing shadows on the wall.


Love is not enough. Not mad enough. Memories sprawl.


Not strong enough — and I see it’s up to me.



Love’s not enough. And I’m not enough. Not mad enough.


Ready, set, and go. Ready, set, and...



But the moment slips away like a whisper in the night.


I linger near. Always close, but never clear.


Out of sight — close, but not quite there. Close.


The moment slips away. In the darkness of the night, I linger near.


Always close but never clear. Seem to be close, but not quite there.



Is it more than I can take?


Is it beyond my strength? Am I not mad enough?


Is it more than I can take?


Love is not enough — drop another pill and fake it.





Ready?


Is it more than I can take?


Is it beyond my strength? Am I not mad enough?



Finally I overcame the challenges

that held me back at the beginning.

Believe me.

Want you to believe me.

Suddenly you make me fall in love again.

Silently you make me fall.

Quietly I find myself on the brink of uncertainty.

Secretly you make me fall again.

Believe me.

You want to be with me.

Release me.

Liberate my heart.

I feel like one day we’ll overcome our insecurities.

One day we will cheer up and be friends. One day.

But I’m not surprised right now,

because you don’t love me anyhow.

I wanna get it and have it all.

Need to have it and get it all.

Anyway.

Lost anywhere.

As days drift and moments fade, it turns out...

As time floats and seasons shift, it turns out... that nothing changes — yet.


From me, you’re on the run.


Out here, it’s one against one.

Trying to catch you through the night,


catch you up in the morning light.


Trying to get near you.



You’re on the run.


Out here, it’s one against one.



I’m not at all feeling sorry,


I am not at all feeling free either.


Oh, I chased you down, didn’t I?


I’ll give you one more day to rest.



Oh, I weighed you down, didn’t I?


I lay heavy on your chest.


I’ve been chasing you, haven’t I?


I’ll give you one more day to rest.



From me, you’re on the run.


Out here, it’s one against one.


So catch your breath — I will be fast, I must confess.



Oh, I wore you out, didn’t I?


And all these questions will remain. Are you in pain?


This wound is a part of you — it will never go away.


But you are brave, I’ll give you that.



From me, you’re on the run.


Out here, it’s one against one.


So catch your breath — I will be fast, I must confess.



One against one.



Forever — that’s too much to ask for.


I gave up on you just so you wouldn’t have to.


Forever — that’s too much to grasp for.


I built these walls up inside.


I only came to hug, then leave you.



Water poured into fire.


Are you gonna stay and linger in the dark?


Water poured into fire.


I wipe off hope from your forehead.


We face the cold and the quiet.


But how did you know? How did you know?



Forever — that’s too long to last for.


I gave up on you just so you wouldn’t have to.


You knew it from the get-go that I would cause you harm,


and built these walls up inside.


I only came to hug, then free you.



Water poured into fire.


Are you gonna stay and linger in the dark?


Water poured into fire.


I wipe hope from your forehead.


We face the cold and the quiet.


But how did you know?



You knew it from the get-go that we would fall and collide.


Crash and burn. Now we can never turn back.


You knew from the get-go that I would not try to rescue —
 

but how did you know?



Face the cold and the quiet.


But how did you know that I’d cause you harm?


And you knew it from the get-go.



It’s a lonesome journey that you took,


a trip to the desert.


It’s a one-way ticket that you’ve got,


a ride along a winding road,


a trip down an empty lane —
 

to meet my heart.



Such a quiet place,


a room with no escape.


Such a quiet place,


your sanctuary hideaway,
 

your shelter for another day.



It’s a lonesome journey that you took,


a trip to the desert,


a trip through twists and turns —
 

with the illusion of finding me there.



Such a quiet place,


a room without any space.


Such a quiet place.


Such a silent retreat,


your sanctuary hideaway,


your shelter for another day.



You’re caught in here —


with the illusion of finding me there.



Such a quiet place,


your sanctuary hideaway,


your shelter for another day.


Your sanctuary hideaway.


It’s beautiful.



As I walk through pouring rain, I’m all alone.

I try to steal away from pain.

And as I walk down empty lanes, not holding on,

I try to wash away your name, and a calm begins to rise.

So I rinse away the pain with dirty old water.

As I walk on through pouring rain, I get over you

and wash away your name with dirty old water.

Hold on for the blink of an eye.

Step back for a moment of time.

Lightning cracks the sky. A calm begins to rise.

And every drop, a memory I’m letting go.

Colors of a vivid past blur in dirty old water.

Thunder crashes overhead, but I’m walking on.

Erase our trail with every step in dirty old water.

Hold on for the blink of an eye.

Step back for a moment in time.

Feel the ease of pain — I’m breathing easily — as I let you fade.

As the rain is falling, I try to let it go,

like a river flowing steady, calm, and slow.

Hold on for the blink of an eye.

Step back for a moment of time.

Lightning cracks the sky. A calm begins to rise.


Another day.

Miles away. Different lighting. New beginnings.

Come a long way just to flip a coin.

Memories fall down slowly, like leaves in a beautiful place.

A picture of grace, tender as the light that breaks in.

Another day.

There’s stillness. There’s silence.

Throwing stones into water, watching circles when they start to move.



Colored autumn leaves — they crumble from heavy thoughts as I lay down.

In stillness. In silence.

The sound of foliage catches my attention every now and then.

Floating doubts in endless water — they come and go with ebb and flow.

Too late to go back to the end.

Another day.

Memories fade out slowly, unlike dreams.

They seem to lose track but tend to come back, tender as the light that breaks in.

Colored autumn leaves — they crumble from heavy thoughts as I lay down.

In stillness. In silence.

The sound of foliage catches my attention every now and then.

Floating doubts in endless water — they come and go with ebb and flow.

Too late to go back to the end.

It seems so dark at new beginnings, but here’s another break of day.

There’s stillness. There’s silence.

Throwing stones into water, watching circles when they start to move.

Floating doubts in endless water — they come and go with ebb and flow.

Too late to go back to the end.

Too late to go back to the end.

Too close to fall back to the end.


It’s beautiful, but you close your senses.

You stay in bed, though the future is ahead.

The world is near, but you’re still in here.

If your dream is too big, you can only fail and fall to the ground, hiding your face from the world.

It’s way too loud in here — or is it all inside your head?

It’s way too crowded here, crying in your single bed.

You’re all alone — the blinds pulled down, the walls are closing in.


You shut out your surroundings.

You choose to stay indoors, withdraw your senses — slowly getting lost.

You feel the gentle pull of unconsciousness, shielded from all outside uncertainties.

Running out of faith, falling to the ground, hiding your face from the world.

It’s way too cold in here. Slowly time trickles by,

and then it disappears — fading with a sigh.

You’re all alone — the blinds pulled down.



But there is a light.

Through all storms and battles that may come, it will shine.

If you stay, I’ll give my love to you.

If you leave, you’ll get it too.

I will stay and give my love to you.

Only love will get you through.



There’s a light in your eyes —

it’s shining through all doubts.

Can you see the light?

I see it.

It’s beautiful, but you close your senses.

You stay in bed, though the future is ahead.

The world is near, but you’re still in here.

If your dream is too big, you can only fail and fall to the ground, hiding your face from the world.

It’s way too loud in here — or is it all inside your head?

It’s way too crowded here, crying in your single bed.

You’re all alone — the blinds pulled down, the walls are closing in.


You shut out your surroundings.

You choose to stay indoors, withdraw your senses — slowly getting lost.

You feel the gentle pull of unconsciousness, shielded from all outside uncertainties.

Running out of faith, falling to the ground, hiding your face from the world.

It’s way too cold in here. Slowly time trickles by,

and then it disappears — fading with a sigh.

You’re all alone — the blinds pulled down.



But there is a light.

Through all storms and battles that may come, it will shine.

If you stay, I’ll give my love to you.

If you leave, you’ll get it too.

I will stay and give my love to you.

Only love will get you through.



There’s a light in your eyes —

it’s shining through all doubts.

Can you see the light?

I see it.

Forever — that’s too much to ask for.


I gave up on you just so you wouldn’t have to.


Forever — that’s too much to grasp for.


I built these walls up inside.


I only came to hug, then leave you.



Water poured into fire.


Are you gonna stay and linger in the dark?


Water poured into fire.


I wipe off hope from your forehead.


We face the cold and the quiet.


But how did you know? How did you know?



Forever — that’s too long to last for.


I gave up on you just so you wouldn’t have to.


You knew it from the get-go that I would cause you harm,


and built these walls up inside.


I only came to hug, then free you.



Water poured into fire.


Are you gonna stay and linger in the dark?


Water poured into fire.


I wipe hope from your forehead.


We face the cold and the quiet.


But how did you know?



You knew it from the get-go that we would fall and collide.


Crash and burn. Now we can never turn back.


You knew from the get-go that I would not try to rescue —
 

but how did you know?



Face the cold and the quiet.


But how did you know that I’d cause you harm?


And you knew it from the get-go.



I’m not myself.
It seems that I’m losing myself.

Whispers of the past, hauntingly near.
Searching for a place where I can hide
In a labyrinth of time, searching for a place.

I’m not myself.
Seems that I am losing myself.
I’m not myself.
Losing control.

A free fall of emotions. I’m losing control — Cascading.
I find liberation in losing control — I’m dancing. Where do I belong to?
A free fall of emotions. I’m losing control — Persuading.
I find liberation in losing control — I’m dancing.

Through the city’s veins, I feel the pulse of the crowd. I’m not myself.
Chasing city lights, I feel the heat of the crowd. I’m not myself.
Chasing city lights, I feel the heat of the crowd — In there, I dissolve.
Through the city’s veins, I feel the pulse of the crowd.

Feeling that my heart is cold, on hold. I’m not myself.
Chase it.br />

Red sun rising
right behind you, my love —
and you’re feeling safe, like the other day.
And you’re feeling brave,
feeling that my heart’s on fire.
I’m feeling that my heart’s on hold —
plain and simple.
Turn myself inside out,
get myself back to the beginning.
I’m spinning.

Red moon rising
and you’re feeling brave, like the other day.
The sky went clear the day I broke your heart.
No fences here — we burned them all down.
The air is thick, and my clothing sticks to my skin,
and you’re feeling safe, like the other day.

Feeling that my heart’s on fire.
I’m feeling that my heart’s so cold.
Feeling that my heart’s on hold.

No fences here — we burned them all down.

Red sun rising

right behind you, my love —

and you’re feeling safe, like the other day.

And you’re feeling brave,

feeling that my heart’s on fire.

I’m feeling that my heart’s on hold —

plain and simple.

Turn myself inside out,

get myself back to the beginning.

I’m spinning.

Red moon rising

and you’re feeling brave, like the other day.

The sky went clear the day I broke your heart.

No fences here — we burned them all down.

The air is thick, and my clothing sticks to my skin,

and you’re feeling safe, like the other day.

Feeling that my heart’s on fire.

I’m feeling that my heart’s so cold.

Feeling that my heart’s on hold.

Defying,

endlessly flying,

I’m diving.
The sky went clear the day I broke your heart.

No fences here — we burned them all down.


Fill me up with all your laughter.
Fill me up with all the joy.
I probably should use all my senses
But operate on hope alone.

Help us if you’re still engaged here.
Help us if you hear my prayer like a broken record.
Can’t you see my world is spinning around you?
You just don’t care.

I’m aware this is a moment of silence —
This is the moment of truth,
I am hoping that you’re still engaged here.
Help us if you hear my prayer.
You just don’t care.

On a one-way ride.
Crash into the water where you love to be.
We’re on a one-way ride — You just don’t care.

Lost in this moment I can hardly see.
It’s all about tomorrow.
Stuck in this moment I can barely move.
Find myself in sorrow —
It’s all about tomorrow.

Oh, you cast your shadow on me when it shines so bright.
In a hurry, I’m in a hurry.
In a hurry, seeing blurry.

Caught in this moment I am barely free.
I am about to make you stay here.
Cover the dust, cover it all.

But in a bright light we won’t be found.
Yes in a bright light we’ll keep it safe.
Yes in a bright light we won’t be seen.
We won’t be caught.

And in a bright light we won’t be found.
Yes in a bright light we won’t be caught.
Yes in a bright light we won’t be seen.
We won’t be found.

Can you tell me when I started to break away?
I can’t remember when I started to move.
Am I overwhelmed,
Blown away —
It’s hard to tell
because I am away.

Can you tell me when we started to live this way,
When it got out of hand?
At the drop of a hat we were falling apart.
Like an empty house,
Overfilled with broken vows.
And I am away.
I’m aware I’m away.

Rush into madness while your words surround me.
Rush into sadness though your words embrace me.
I can’t explain the change of heart —
Like an empty house,
Overfilled with broken vows.

I am knocking — well, kind of crashing — at your door,
well, kind of smashing at your door,
I am kind of breaking your door,
well, it got out of hand and I am away,
I’m aware I’m away.

Can you tell me when you started to break away?
Can you tell me why it started to heal?
Am I overwhelmed?
Blown away —
It’s hard to tell.

I’m humming along with music
Standing in high grass and admiring the sky.
Some rocks you don’t turn over.

I’m humming along with music,
standing on your lawn,
And I’m wondering why.
Some rocks you don’t turn over.

The world is falling down,
like a pretty French gown
from your shoulder.
I should have left in time —
this is some freakish twist of irony.
You’re close to me, so close to me,
well, this is some freakish twist of irony —
You’re finally too close to me.

I’m humming along with music,
I try to close my eyes,
still I’m watching the sky.
Some rocks you don’t turn over.

Come chase me
I’m not hiding
I am over here.
You know me, undeniably.
I’m caught in here.
I’ll give my all just to be with you,
I’ve got to have you with me,
You both cause and soothe the pain inside of me.

Oh and silently I am stealing away,
Leaving secretly
and where I appear,
you are already there.

I won’t let you hold on to me and drag me down,
I won’t let you hold on to me and wrap me up.
Why don’t you come out, babe?
A life in chiffon.
Another whiskey — hit me!
Life is drifting away.

Oh and silently I am shifting over,
falling silently,
and where I end up
You are already there.

Pull my finger off the trigger,
and then see what remains.

I won’t let you hold on to me and drag me down,
I won’t let you get away.

Why don’t you come out?
Live a life in chiffon.
Another whiskey — hit me
And life is drifting away.

It lies beneath our feet,
but nevertheless we can’t see it.
I turn my head upside down,
and the smoke burns in the eyes.
Fall into place — I fall into you.

Glass beneath our feet — only way to walk.
We move forwards and roll back.
I turn my head upside down,
it seems the smoke is gonna clear.
Things will fall into place.

In an act of silence,
I simplify the way I wanna feel,
feeling less weak.
Forever, for now and for good —
forever I’d stay if I could.
It lies beneath our feet.
I fall into a place of hope,
but the smoke is gonna clear.
Fall into place — I fall,
and the smoke burns in the eyes.

You’re missing the point, my dear —
I trust my intuition.
You’re missing the joy in here,
come trust your intuition.
You’re missing the point,
you’re missing the joint.
Adrenalin.

Get back in the race, my dear,
come try again.
This time around, you will not miss me.
Adrenalin.
You’re missing the point,
you’re missing the joint.

In this moment, when we catch our breath and step back,
we can feel it beneath our toes.
Step back, and we linger for the blink of an eye —
yeah, we linger for a blink of an eye.

Hold on to it, and follow the path to the end,
where we linger for a blink of an eye,
exploring facial expressions.

Adrenalin.
You’re missing the point.

The fun is left to those who play the game.
I’m walking in with zero expectations.
The fun is left to those who stand the pain,
we never set up any regulations.

Come near to my bed,
wipe off faith from my forehead,
and I’ll still feast upon the crumbs you left.

The sound of ticking clocks and breaking hearts —
I’m tapping out with zero indications,
and I’m fainting.

Come near to my bed,
wipe off faith from my forehead,
and I’ll still feast upon the crumbs you left.

Fun was left to the others,
and one was left there behind.
One thing led to the other.
The strange today is the hurting of yesterday.
You’re wondering why,
you’re wondering what I’m waiting for.

I drink, I drown, I give up, I give in —
I’ve never been so far from realization.

The fun is left to those who stand the pain.
I’m walking in with zero expectations.
The fun is left to those who play the game,
we never set up any regulations.

Distant sirens are breaking through —
what is it that scares you so much?
Distant laughter, and we still cry —
what is it that scares me so much?
So I sink into your eyes,
but what is it that makes us feel empty?
Distant laughter, and we still run in circles —
and what is it that makes us feel sorry?

Can you feel it taking us?
Can you feel it running down your spine?
Your heart is beating like mine.
I am terrified — just like you — I’m falling too.
Can you feel it?

Oh, I got lost there in between.
Are my fingers still clean?
Mirrored eyes, so glistening.
Oh, rough days, like foreseen,
just cracks in the screen,
and I got lost there in between.
When I’m on my own,
all layers come off me.
So I sink into your eyes,
so I’m slipping through your hands.

Can you feel it taking us?
Do you feel it breaking us?
Can you hear it?
Can you feel it running down your spine?
Your heart is beating like mine.
I am terrified, just like you.
Can you feel it?
Are my fingers still clean?
I got lost there in between.
Can you heal it?

The future is near,
I will stay indoors.
I am the freak you can talk to.
The world lies ahead, but I will stay in bed.
I am the freak you get bored with.
I am the freak you get bored with,
and it symbolizes everything you are.

The future is here,
I will stay indoors.
I am the freak you can talk to.
The world lies ahead, but I won’t fall apart.
I am a freak — how can you get bored?
I am the freak you get bored with,
and it symbolizes everything you are.
It symbolizes everything we are.

The future is here,
I will stay indoors.
I am the freak you can talk to.
And I will stay indoors,
I am the freak you can talk to.
Am I the freak you’ll get old with?

Straight in my eyes,
I just want you to look straight in my eyes.
It is like sand slipping through my hands.
Straight in my eyes.
And it symbolizes everything you are,
it symbolizes everything we are.

A new day is dawning.
We’re hugging anonymously.
Could we just hold on tight to the night,
walking right back to the sea?
Talking anonymously.

This is the last time, I feel it.
This is the last word, I mean it.
This is the last breath — come take it.
Breathe me in.
This is the last breath — come take it.
Now it’s yours.

You go, and I won’t follow.
You go, and I can’t follow.
You go away — I won’t follow.
You go, and I won’t follow.

Turn your back on me,
go where you can’t hide,
and you step into the light,
escape into the wild.
Turn away from me,
go where you can’t hide.

You go, and I will stay.

This is the last time, I feel it.
This is the last word, I mean it.
This is the last breath — come take it.
Breathe me in.

I won’t hold on to you.

This is the last time, I feel it.
This is the last word, I mean it.
Now it’s yours.

I’m not aligned with you.
I’m not at war — never have been, never will be.
So will you hold on to me?
Turn your back on me.
Turn away from me,
go where you can’t hide.

How we try to stand still, though the water rushes in,
and by nightfall it will be gone.
Right before dawn, it will be done.

You’re guilty as sin,
you’re guilty as sin,
I am guilty as sin.

This is so unlike you —
so unlike you.
This is so unlike me.

We are tellers of untruth —
a lie had bounded us when we didn’t know any different.

You’re guilty as hell,
you’re guilty.
I’m guilty as sin.
You’re guilty as sin
with your guilty gaze.
I’m guilty as sin.

Here we are — look at us, we’re gonna crash and burn,
like vanishing dust when the storm sets in.

This is so unlike you —
so unlike you.
This is so unlike me,
so unlike us.

Here we are.
I’m guilty as sin,
but you are guiltier.
I’m guilty as sin.
You’re guilty as sin
with your guilty gaze.
I’m guilty as sin.

This is so unlike you —
so unlike you.
So unlike us.